I have got lods of regrets my huge one is I never told Roise how I felt . Now she is gone I hope Roise knew I love her . I miss her everyday . Roise dint see me as disablied I was free I with her Roise was going to be my further my wife I was going to ask her to merry me . Now that will never happen . I hope Roise knew I love her and spending time with her was a treat . Getting to know her again all over those years I wish I had the balls to say I love you . That will stay with me the rest of my life . Not having balls to say I love you . And I should of been there when Roise was really unwell and had other story’s like bullying . That will stay with me the rest of my life . I wasn’t there for Pam when Deark passed away that destory me they both took me in with there family’s they love me with my disbaltey I love them . Forever and ever . Will be part of my life . They helped me out with bullying . I miss Deark and all his talks Getting to know me more . I promised him I would by there when he gose and be there for family’s I left with a lot going on That will always still destory me . Now I am back Pam Is dieing I have falied as a friend . I should have been there . That what friends are for .Now I will always regret it .

You can be my angel watching me . I will love you all forever and ever .You have always been the one for me I miss you soo much my life has changed foreve your my queen and your king I am your king Thank You for being my friend over years . x You will always be in my hart

Jonathan Williams .